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this feelings strikes few months ago when i was taking care of my mom at the hospital, she got breast cancer in late stage. i was seeking for support from every place that i could reach, from my boyfriend, close friends, and the other family member that is sister/brother to my mom. i didn't feel enough, i need someone that has the same experience, because when you tell stories to someone that have never experienced it, somehow you cannot "meet" the connection. so i was digging through some articles looking for people that has the same experience as me, i found one with the title 'I Put My Own Life on Hold': The Pain and Joy of Caring for Parents. i was so glad to know that i am not alone in this, i was feeling very down during that period of time, it was February - end of April 2020 where i feel like "what did i do with my life to deserve this situation? to deserve waking up to 2 people having chronic ill (my dad have stroke since 2017) and need help even to ...

few weeks ago, i post on my insta-story a picture of me writing down my journal and i got several questions towards that. my friends were like wondering how do i keep writing, what do i write, when is the best time to write, so yeah. as yesterday i watched Lana Blakely video on youtube, where she journal for 17 years (i will link the video down below) and i feel resonates to the video that she made! when it comes to journaling or writing, you really don't force it. you basically write whatever you feel like, treat that book as someone that you can fully trust. because on my journal, i really write everything, like E V E R Y T H I N G --from what i'm feeling like at that time, what i'm currently obsessed with, what i hate, or just writing down my dreams, even the craziest dream that i don't know will happen or not! and i simply keep writing because i got tons of feelings everyday, and it is always feel better to write it down. it's like i'm taking off the weight ...

okay so basically i am kind of re-write my blog here since it takes quiet some time for me to figure out wordpress, and when i use blogspot UX (user xperience) i feel more comfortable and more easier to understand here! so i will jump into the review as what i write on my wordpress! eyebrow has always been the first world problem for me! in this case, i really don’t care about the term going bare face with no make up at all, because NO! i cannot not have an eyebrow framing my face! hahaha.. so it all started when i was on a video call with a friend of mine, she saw me with no eyebrow and said “i guess you should try henna eyebrow” i didn’t directly check it, but after few weeks i remember about what she said, and straight researching the review on the internet, especially on youtube. so i discovered a few video, but some of them are making it too big like a sinchan cartoon eyebrows.. so yeah i’ll just give it a shot, beside the price was very cheap! below is the details of where did i ...

so my company announced that on August we will have a full month of working from home, it is in between happy and sad at the same time! i am happy because i get to be with home and taking care of my dad and i am sad because at the end of the day i feel so alone (guess this is what half of the population feeling during the quarantine). it is not that i enjoy of being alone, in fact I DO enjoy alot! it’s just there’s something missing for not communicating the whole day with someone! even though i communicate with my boyfriend through video chat or text some of my friends, but still i get the lonely feelings! but anyway, this post was aiming to give you a preview of what i do in a day (like youtube vlog style, but in a written blog)  07.30am: starting to wake up, collecting pieces of my dreams, and reminiscing the emotions once again because i am now awake 07.55am: praying in my heart, thanking God because i am awake now, and all my whole body could function properly. take a moment t...

so i went for a walk this morning, just to get some fresh air. as i crossed one of my neighborhood, there was 3 little girl who wants to join my morning walk, so i let them join me. one of the girl, named Aida, she was suddenly show me her flexibility! like straddle splits, where your body facing front then cobra pose variations, where both of your leg reaching your head while you do the high cobra pose. i was mesmerized and thought “damn this girl got the skill, meanwhile i just started yoga and trying so hard to practice all of this poses!” haha but well turns out she already do gymnastics since she was a kid, now she is 10/11yrs old i guess. as i walk back home, i saw this wooden house nearby my house and there was the owner, Bu Yuli! i finally got the chance to talk to her. she is 48 yrs old, she owns a kindergarten school and do caterings also. reason why she build this wooden house is simply because she wants to feel peaceful. the small area of the house only consists of plants a...